When will this winter-like weather ever end?!! It's becoming real depression. My mood is anxious because I'm awaiting results of an ultrasound. My doctor ordered an MRI a while back and that came back as my brain being fine. (Does that mean I'm not crazy?)  However, the MRI showed what could be a problem with my carotid artery. So, the ultrasound was done on both carotids a couple of days ago. If that does or doesn't show a problem, I'll also have an MRA. I wasn't too nervous about any of it when I had the MRI, but now I'm sorta worried. Good grief, I don't need any more stress!

Have you ever looked at an old person and thought to yourself how much they must hate being old? I have, but not until I became "older" myself. It isn't the age that bothers me (I've probsbly already said that), but rather how quickly the years have gone by. And I hardly noticed until I awoke one day and took a long look in the mirror. Where did she go? That woman that was young and slim, with plump lips and taut skin? Now the only thing plump is my butt! My hands are wrinkled and my boobs slipped down a notch. My butt got big, as did my calves. When I used to be so proud to wear shorts in the summertime and sleeveless tops.... Now I wouldn't be caught dead in a pair of shorts and I keep these flabby arms covered up.

We all began as infants. We all kept growing. And then, one day, we were getting cranky, couldn't stand a lot of noise, ran out of energy and could no longer do some of the things that we did in our youth. That's what I'm talkin' about, people. Our brains tell us that we can do it. Our bodies beg to differ. The hardest part is having to leave so much behind now - the things we can no longer do, but would give anything if we could. Inside my head (without looking at a mirror) I'm still the young woman who loved to take crazy chances and run around in a sports car. Where did she go? To be continued...